I read something on Facebook the other day that hasn’t sat right with me since. It was one of those viral posts that takes off like a locomotive and is shared by many, most of which don’t take the time to really think about what they’re sharing. We see that a lot in today’s world amidst all of the politics, health scares, bizarre weather, etc. Oh, a buzzword! *shares*
The post simply read, “Depression isn’t attractive.” Then the text image went on to talk about how poor mental health isn’t attractive and that you shouldn’t be surprised when someone leaves you because of it, or if you aren’t able to find happiness because of it. How it isn’t someone else’s responsible to “fix” you, or mend your wounds. You can’t blame others for leaving you, you drove them away.
Before I delve into my personal beliefs on this, let me first say that I totally get it. I wholeheartedly understand what they’re trying to say and, quite frankly, agree with it. Poor mental health isn’t pretty. I don’t think any of us swipe through Tinder waiting to see the bio that says, “Hey, I’m Tammy, and I have depression and struggle with my self-worth. Oh, and I love the Office.” Not only do we not search for that, we don’t put that in our bio in the first place. Mental health isn’t attractive unless its the good kind – smiles, happy emojis, pictures with friends, pictures of your laughing. I totally get the point behind the post at a superficial level. There isn’t a single soul out there who sells their anxiety, depression, OCD, stress, as a Bumble topic of discussion. With that, I also want to thoroughly promote the idea that seeking help is always okay. You are never alone no matter how you feel. Even Tammy from Tinder with her multiple cat jokes and awkward picture of what appears to be her ex.
Mental health issues aren’t attractive.
Yet, they define us. I have depression. Well, I’m more inclined nowadays to say I had a mental roommate named depression who ultimately dropped out, but he still likes to visit every once in a while. Those who know me are aware than I am very transparent with my mental health and cognizant of it. Its the main reason I created this blog. I enjoy allowing myself to be open and free with my issues because I have received so many messages about how my transparency has helped others feel safe, welcome, and not alone. Do I consider the fact I have depression to be attractive? No. Do I consider it a facet of my existence, something I work to control and applaud myself for being able to overcome? Oh, most definitely. I think that is sexy as shit.
Yet, mental health issues aren’t attractive.
If someone doesn’t truly know you, could they ever love you? Think about it. How often do we hear, “I guess I really never knew him/her” or “they weren’t who I thought they were.” Even worse, we hear this so often after completed suicides – someone had struggled for years, battled their demons and lost. If you play the fake game and you pretend to be Justin and Hailey Bieber and his wife on Instagram – constantly happy, sharing selfies, love quotes, lyrics – but hide your true self, isn’t that less attractive than owning who you are and embracing your flaws? If you have to lie to a potential partner to make them like you, to think you’re loveable, aren’t you really just lying to yourself? If you can’t love yourself, how could you ever love another… yet, how could another ever truly love you if you don’t love yourself? Think, think, think.
“How you love yourself is how you teach others to love you.”
You should love yourself regardless of the so-called issues you may face. You’ve been going to see a counselor for your anxiety? Beautiful! That is such an impeccably strong thing to do, how could someone else not see that the same? You got out of bed on time this weekend and cleaned your apartment, regardless of how bad you wanted to sloth and watch Netflix? What an amazing feat of motivation and a show of such will-power. If someone doesn’t swipe right for that, you don’t want ’em anyways. I’ll be the first to admit that self-love and self-worth don’t flow like chocolate rivers in Willy’s factory most of the time, they aren’t this ever-present entity constantly cheering lingering. These are things we must work to find and quantify. It is also vital that those things are found intrinsically, or from within yourself. No one else can give you self-worth or self-love, that’s where the “self” comes in.
Mental health issues aren’t attractive, but you are.
Say it again for the people in the back.
Mental health issues aren’t attractive, but you are.
I like that better. The has a better ring to it. If you can define the beauty of another simply based on the battles they face, you aren’t worth their time to begin with. You are you, holistically. You are beautiful in every aspect even though some may be more pronounced than others. Your trials and tribulations do not lessen your worth. If anything, they heighten it. They harden you, strengthen your hide. They are the scars that define you as a person.
And like Shane Falco once said, “pain heals, chicks dig scars, and glory lasts forever.” Kudos if you get that reference.
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